I'm about to call. I'm nervous, but hopefully I'll get the appointment in today. If not, then I might wait until after tomorrow. I'm not sure.

-K.

....aaaand I called. They don't have appointments until August 13th, dammit. I don't know if I can afford this right now.

I'm scared for the Alpha thing. I don't want to have the whole situation happen all right now...have it affect all of NOW...where he fucked up my life just because of a whole month or two. And it doesn't help that he's somewhere else and I don't care about him that much anymore.

Yeah, definitely scared about just setting up the appointment. And going...gah, that's another story. I'm going to have to prepare for this. I dunno. I'm tired. I've hardly been getting sleep these weeks. I'm scared right now, and I can't really do anything about it until 10:00 AM. Another hour and a half. It's sucking thus far, the waiting. I've been dreading this since 3:30 in the morning.

And I dunno, I've just been feeling off for three days. I can't hardly think about it because it hurts to do so.

It's just a stage. I'm happy otherwise. I'm just really paranoid and shit right now. I'll vent later.

Aw, and my birthday's tomorrow. FUCK.

-Shinobu